Saturday, April 26, 2008

All You Get Is Sound

I am tired of walking around here with my hands on my guns. it seems like whenever i find a good groove in life my first gut reaction is to go on total guard and tense up and worry about what bad will happen next. i'm always afraid of good things going on. like i don't deserve them or am not allowed them. i always feel like i'm breaking rules. even when i'm not. normally i know when i'm breaking rules. and am aware of it. but for some reason it seems like somethings off. i don't know what it is. my dog is getting big. she was at the ocean yesterday for the first time. i took her swimming. its been beautiful out lately. this change in weather from winter to spring puts life in my veins. it brings me RIGHT back to last year this time being in the studio at rock beach and recording every day and just living a good life. balanced. hard working. proficient. at peace. i guess i just miss that energy. which is good because any time i am in the studio now i work so hard to get to that place of vibe. where the room is just buzzing at the heightened creativity. where you can literally feel it when you walk in the room. almost intrusive. like walking into a room full of dust or smoke. its saturday night at 9pm and i'm sitting in my kitchen with a blunt my dog at my feet and it feels damn good. i even lit a candle. sometimes i feel like such a wiener, but, i like candles. and i also like mood lighting. and i can appreciate the odd veggie sub, and i like vacuumed rooms. breathing in and out. and all you get is sound. take me away and you will say, that all you get is sound. i will always fear emptiness.

"I have failed to learn many things in my life. But I stand amongst some of the most apt pupils of the human condition." - jwh


Maybe its another excuse for the way our things have been going
Baby i don't see why you're waiting, i've been gone too long

So don't believe everything, don't believe everything, that you see
Cause baby i'm everything, baby i'm everything, that you need

Cause all i can offer is when i'm around
Take me away and you will say
That all you get is sound

So maybe this is how its gotta be another day that i'll just phone in
Excuse me when i say what i mean cause i know i've been gone too long

So don't believe everything, don't believe everything, that you hear
Cause baby i'm everything, baby i'm everything, when i'm near

Cause all i can offer is when i'm around
Take me away and you will say
That all you get is sound

You say, you amaze me with your song, you amaze,

Cause all i can offer is when i'm around
take me away and you will say
that all you get is sound

take me away and you will say that all you get is sound
take me away and you will say that all you get is sound